This is Not Last Time

I am having to remind myself today in the absence of pregnancy symptoms that this time is not like last time. I got lucky last time in that I experienced pregnancy symptoms one week after my positive OPK. I have to remind myself that every pregnancy is different, which means I might not have symptoms at all this time other than a missed period, and when I do get symptoms, they could be completely different from last time. I won't necessarily have the same symptoms.

Admittedly, I am a tad let down that here I am at 1:30 in the afternoon and have yet to have a near fainting spell. I have had some dizziness, but again, that could be due to something else completely. I was EXHAUSTED starting yesterday and took a nap from 6-7 last night, fell asleep almost right away at bedtime, and was so tired this morning I could barely put one foot in front of the other well into late morning. Again, could be due to the same thing that could be causing the dizziness. I was nauseous this morning, but I think that had more to do with the fact that I ate a cookie first thing before heading to work. The girls hurt like no one's business, but they always hurt before AF, and it is impossible for me to say if they usually hurt like this in any given cycle, or if this time is different.

Basically, I am discounting everything I have in the way of potential pregnancy symptoms unless they become way more pronounced. *sigh* But the day is far from over, and tomorrow is a new day, so I am keeping myself from getting discouraged by reminding myself of that fact. That and that I can't, or rather shouldn't, compare last time to this time.

I do find comfort in the fact that I know I'm not just making up symptoms too. Heaven knows we can make ourselves feel any way just by using our brains. I can honestly say I am not making myself feel pregnancy symptoms just to hype myself up. I am giving them a chance to do their thing on their own and in their own time.

Hopefully, just hopefully, I will feel something tomorrow.