Surprise of All Surprises! (A MUST read!)

I don't even know how to begin this post, but it is most definitely one of the most exciting things I have blogged about yet. I have been mulling over how I would word it, how I would start it out, how I would break the news for days now, and I still have no clue how to do it. There are just no words to express the excitement in our little home right now. Perhaps I will use a picture to tell what is going on. Please excuse the fuzziness, but it is apparently difficult for any camera to zoom in on the key feature of this photograph, but I am sure you will all get the point.

That's right friends, the one who 100% completely gave up hope of ever seeing such a message from a long-time hated enemy has finally seen what I thought I would never see in my lifetime. I am pregnant! :o

Apparently the dizzy spells I had over a week ago were brought on by implantation. I wondered at the time if that was the cause, but as a very skeptical infertile who had completely given up on the possibility of motherhood, I chose to believe it was a strange format of migraine. When the dizziness didn't cease by the following Tuesday, I made a doctor appointment and point blank refused to take a pregnancy test when she suggested it, even though my monthly visitor was a day late, and she's never late.

Then on Thursday I had my first appointment with my new OB/GYN, to which I made Hubs go. I had set up the appointment a month ago after I spotted an entire 7 days before my unwanted visitor showed. So when I informed her that AF was now three days late, she of course wanted to do a pg test. I told her flat out no. This was after I had given her my entire IF history, so she was very sensitive to my emotional needs, but asked me three more times if I would please take a pg test. I finally relented, but mostly because I did have to pee really bad. A few minutes later, my doctor came in, leaned over me, and whispered in my ear, "It was positive. You're pregnant." Of course I instantly began to cry, and looked over at my sweetie for his reaction, who was still quite skeptical, as we have had a false positive pg test at a doctor's office before (I couldn't see a line, on the false positive test, but the nurses swore they could).

My doctor and her nurse told me the line was faint, but it was absolutely there. I asked if they were sure, because I had been told that once before. Then I asked to see the test. The nurse happily brought in my test, and sure enough, the pink line WAS there. I spent the rest of my appointment in a fog while my doctor talked to me about blood tests and prenatal vitamins. I just couldn't believe it. When I left her office I called all of my family members to break the news, and of course I cried every time I told someone new. It still wasn't sinking in at this point, however. I don't think it really sunk in until yesterday morning when I got up and took my first home pregnancy test just to confirm the positive result, and sure enough, it came back Pregnant.

Over the weekend the idea has slowly began to sink in. Today we headed over to B&N to buy the book, "What to Expect When You're Expecting" and the new "Eating Well When You're Expecting." The most interesting thing I read so far is that your 9 months begins at your last period, which means I am considered already a month along. The only symptom that is lingering is the sore, swelling "girls." The dizziness subsided after my doctor appointment on Tuesday. I have been a bit exhausted, but that is pretty normal for me. I don't have morning sickness (yet), but I have had some slight cramping. I had a tiny bit of spotting after my exam on Thursday, but that has subsided as well.

The next few weeks will be interesting since we get our puppy this Saturday. I have done almost everything I need to to prepare for her homecoming, but I still need to clean out the puppy crate and get it set up. I purchased a few toys for her, and have all of the other essentials like tag, collar, and leash. I ordered her and Mags a bag of locally made organic dog food, and it showed up on Friday. I guess I am more ready for her than I feel like I am.

The most interesting part about all of this is that I honest to God gave up on ever being pregnant, and now here I am, encouraging my little poppy seed to grow and thrive. What an amazing surprise for our family.