Christmas Is Over

The weekend with my little brother flew by in a flash. It honestly seems like I just went to the airport to get him, and already he is gone. We ended up getting 12.5" of snow the day before he flew in. I joked that it was all just for him, since he was coming from up North. Hubs said none of my family can come visit anymore because it snowed just before my parents came down and again before my brother did. Stinking snow.

We had a total blast all weekend. Birdman (his nickname) got in around 1:00 on Friday afternoon. The next few hours were spent taking care of the baby and waiting for Hubs to get home from work. When he did, the babysitter showed up right on time, and we were out the door to diner and Av.atar (awesome movie; awesome). My brother LOVED it, which made me happy.

Saturday we went to the Bo.dies exhibit. It cost a pretty penny to get in, and I have to sadly admit, it was a big letdown. I expected it to be so much cooler and bigger than it was. Don't get me wrong, it was neat and all, but I apparently had some pretty high expectations. In fact, all of us thought it was a big letdown. You know those chicken jerky treats you buy for your dog? Well, the bodies looked like those things. Some of the exhibits were really cool, and some of them just weren't. I really did enjoy the fetal section though. They had fetuses at different stages of development. Its sad that they are actual babies, but it was so cool to see what my baby looked like during certain stages of the pregnancy. Just FYI, the baby that was 9 weeks old had all 10 fingers and toes as well as the beginnings of a skeletal system. How anyone could abort that is beyond me. I couldn't stop staring at each of the babies. I was so enthralled and amazed at the journey. I think that exhibit alone made my admission worth it.

After the Bo.dies exhibit, my brother wanted to go to the aquarium that was right across the street, so we did. It was more like a zoo than an aquarium, but all of us loved it. The rest of the weekend was spent shopping (Birdman loves to shop as much as I do), eating tasty food, sleeping, and playing Ma.rio Bro.thers on the Wi.i. It was so much fun.

Before we knew it, I was taking him back to the airport. I dropped him off and cried as I drove away. It literally felt like I had left a little piece of my heart behind. I cried again tonight even. I hate living so far away from my family sometimes.

Tonight after I got home, I started feeling really down. I thought about it and I realized it is because I don't have anything really exciting to look forward to now. My Christmas is finally over. My New Year blues have officially begun. Its back to the old bump and grind, trying to find that little something to make each day not seem mundane, trying to remember to find the pleasure in each passing moment instead of wishing it all away.

I guess for now I need to remember what it means to really put my nose to the grindstone and get back into the swing of things. No more slacking off. It is time to get back to business.

*Alert - This may be a bit TMI*

But on a very happy side note, my cycles are quickly returning back to normal. I haven't seen such lovely CM since before I got pregnant. You know you're an infertile when the sight of your CM makes you smile and clap your hands. I can't believe how quickly my body has gotten back into things since having my IUD removed a week and a half ago. Only a few more days and I start up on the OPKs. I've got my fingers crossed that I get that perfect positive. For now, I will look forward to that until something bigger comes along.